20131219

Once without God.

Once without hope.

Once far from any heavenly promise.

Apart from the blessed nation.

Yet by one sacrifice,

By one Lamb,

I am redeemed.

Now His God is my God.

Now His Father is also my Father.

Now coheir with Him.

Now sit together with Him.

Now one with Him.

Even more, "one flock, one Shepherd"

~ book of Eph

New office!!!!!

20131206

Although not God, although created, although lowly, yet You love and treasure me. Not just as whom You've created, but as Your only beloved son. 

Better than Adam, glorious than the angels. 

All will admire and praise us that God and man can be as one. 

20130903

永遠的投入

永遠的同在

永遠是人

永遠的愛

20130903

永遠的投入

永遠的同在

永遠是人

永遠的愛

20140818

Trip to Seattle and New York~

Early in the morning...7:30am 

Well and I enjoyed our mini break bread meeting in the car remembering The Lord~

20130816

I understands more of the Father's acceptance in the Prodigal son. Nothing can become a hindrance. 

20130810

O Lord, save me!
My heart is broken.
My inside are out and are left under the sun to dry.
I have no wisdom. I having nothing left.
All that i have are despised.

My God, I keep my eyes on You.
My heart, rest in The Lord.

20130624 in Pretoria

Today's worship was extra ordinary. I felt a stretch. One goal i set after this worship is that I really need more truths and songs to build up my foundations.

In today's worship, we meditated on The Lord overcoming all things and siting on the right hand of God and the blessing of it. It is really amazing. We might not realize the blessing of it or didn't meditate how great it is. I realize the preciousness of God's heart. His love plan is from everlasting to everlasting. From the beginning when God started to plan and discuss to in eternity where our glory is known throughout the whole universe. God has always wanted us to be glory and be like The Lord. It is just that Men degrade their own value. Man is created to be like The Lord to enjoy all the blessings. This kind of glory is really indescribable.

I really need to spend more time to realize my own identity more!!!! I am soooo glorious!

20130619

I am already half way through my trip!!!
So far, it has been amazing. I felt like I have relived all the main event of our Church History.
I feel that I am very blessed to be in this movement!

20130616

Short wall with The Lord

Song : "O Lord, thank you for you've brought me to Vancouver"

Lord thank you that You've prepared my life even before I know it. Thank you I can have the journey here in Vancouver. I thank you that You've always treasured me and You helped me to treasure you. 

I thank you for those days when I don't have work so I could join more meetings and gatherings. I treasure that I got to know how to experience you, how to have a life with brothers and sisters, how to worship, and draw near to You. If I didn't have that year jobless, I wouldn't be what I am today. 

Thank you for always listening to my prayers and giving me what I need at the right moment. 

Thank you for letting me go on mission trips. I really thank you for all the support from my parents, friends, and brothers and sisters. 

I realize more and more that you want to use me. I thank you for all those whom you have put into my life. They have blessed me and taught me very valuable lessons. Although sometimes I might not treasure them as much as I should, but you never give up on me. 

Lord I do not know where you will lead me tomorrow, but I treasure that I can follow you and your will! 

I really treasure my life. 

While in Pretoria, South Africa 

20130603

Songs of Solomon 6:13

Lord you admire me in every way~ 

Thank you for your praise~

"What would you see in the Shulamite"

Lord help me to live out a life that You desire me to have~! 

20130602

This morning when I woke up I had a thought - in the past when I go out on mission trip I feel so free and excited because I can go with my friends. This morning I had a different feeling. I feel like I don't know what's ahead. With my own passion for His work, choosing to go for Him, feeling many uncertainty... I kind of feel what Violin feels. Going to places that are unknown with little local support, not knowing what will happen, waiting for the Lord's guidance... I feel the same. But then Abba confirmed to me that He is in control. The Lord also confirmed that it is His work also~ 

I treasure that I can go for Him! 

20130601

Sat

Ps22:26

Our heart - motive and condition 

All our practices trains our heart to be in condition.

Realize theLord. 

Realize the trinity God.

We need to be balance. We not just walk put a certain truths, but we need to walk out all the truths. 

1peter 2:4-5

Most importantly is is our heart alive to God. 

If you're living you will the. Have response.

1) give thanks - to a point that you are joyful and will shout for joy.

    - choose topics that has been bothering you ( see The Lord before you see the thing that bother you), things that are ordinary

2) talk to The Lord from your heart, sweet talk

Partner pursue 

Open heart and share what needs to improve. Remind one another. 

20130529

Lord I treasure our relationship. I am Your darling and You are my beloved. Thank you for the book of Songs of Solomon. I treasure Your love to me~ so fresh, fervent, passionate~ You are my love!

20130528

(Songs of Solomon 4)

I am the Lord'a greatest enjoyment. He appreciates my words to Him, for it is pleasant to His ears. He appreciates my eyes, for they captures His. He appreciates my smile, for He is sweetens by it. He appreciates my songs, He is ravished by my heart. 

I am the Lord's greatest enjoyment. In good times and bad times, He enjoys my love to Him.

Night worship

So precious to be united to the fountain of all the good things. I will have no lack but much satisfaction. 

20130526

Father, You need me most. 

I am more than a creation, You don't treat me as Your second son but You cause me to be born of You.

Thank you for sending your son so I can know You and my own identity. 

You really want me to gain the best father's love. 

Lord, I am really touched that you became a man for me. No friend are willing or even able to live for a life for me. But you came as a perfect Son of Man and lived a life for me. All that you did and went through was for me. You even went through death. 

20130522

I remember when I was young, I wondered why memories are so important. They always seem to be so painful to remember. I know I used to focus on negative things but sometimes it is not a voluntary action to take those memories out and wave them around.

It definitely did not feel good when someone reminds me of past shadows. I know that person didn't mean to or meant it to be a joke but the feeling is there and it's unavoidable. I relied on the Lord at that moment but it was really difficult. At that moment I really ask the Lord why I have those memories and why I have this kind of personality.

Memories are there for me to enjoy. Memories are there for me to avoid ... repeating mistakes.
Memories are there for me to improve.

20130520

Abba, I treasure to have you as my Father. You know me more than anyone else. Even before I tell, You know how I feel. I may not be the best in expressing myself but You understand me. 

20130519

Lord I really enjoy the truth that I am saved and You washed me whiter than snow! I am even reborn by the Spirit! 

This is truly amazing!

20130518

Morning ~

Lord, how could I not give thanks.
When I think of the people that you put in my life, some are easy to be with, some give difficult comments, some have no motivation, some are full of life... All these are to mould me.
If you did not give me all these i'd never learn what i've known now.

One think I give thanks is how my parents are. Although I understand that people's character are affected by many factors like genetic influences and where they grew up, but their character and personality help me see the greatness of the Lord as a Man. I just want to be like the Lord.
I learn to not mind too much of what bothers me from others. If it is me that needs to learn, then I try to improve~

Night~ 

Love is when you love and you put your all in it.

Love is also when you don't feel like it but you still do it because you know it's right.

20130517

Friday night

Lord, thank you for giving so much in my life. My greatest blessing is that I can share with other people. Lord, help me to treasure that I can bless others. I want to improve and be transformed!

20130514

Father, you treasure this affection the most. You use all things to explain your father's love to me. Not even all the Fathers in this world can be compared or explain your father's love. Thank you for sending Your Son so I know my true identity!! 

20130506

Love is not just relying on and trusting each other, it is also trusting that The Lord can cause all things to work together. Men cannot rely on themselves. No matter how strong they are, men will fail if without God. Love without God is just empty, lust, no direction... Only if we learn to love God and experience His quality of love then we know how to love.

20130506

Morning DNTG

"Lord, who is more lovely than yourself?
You are worthy of my love.
Although You are self sufficient, all knowing, You did not look upon my weakness and see that I will fall and go away from you. You did not complain about men's weakness and even their misunderstanding about You. Yet, You love me fervently, patiently and steadfastly. You satisfies my heart. You see and focus on the joy ahead, my potential, my strength! Lord, there is no one that can love me as You do. Thank you for never giving up on me!"

20130423

Lord, thank you for saving me. You cause my life to bring forth spring, flower to blossom, freshness of the field, clear blue sky... Truly today I am no longer myself. You died for me so that today I am burned again. My old self have past away, no more hinderance, shadows, or trace of past sin, but fully a new creation!!! Wonderful!!!

20130416

In Tuesday night worship:
Abba, I understand more of how infinite father's love to me. You loved me not because I am Your Son, but because of Your Father's heart. There is no beginning to Your love to me but You have loved me since the beginning. Because you are infinite, Your love to me never lacks and also have no beginning. From the start, Your love to me already is the greatest.

20130414

Breakbread meeting

Abba, you have sworn and will not relent to make The Lord my high priest. This is Your passion, to make me Your dearest.

Message meeting
Lord, Your obedience cause me to love You more~ in the garden, You struggled but You obey the Father.

I had great success today!! Woohoo!! I gave out the music sheets, did the drama and practiced with the choir~ I enjoy involving in this family! I imagined that one day we can go to any place and can perform anything professionally~ and if not professionally then very influential~!

20130411

Happy Birthday to me~!!
I lived a quarter of a century!!!
Amazing to know that I am already that old. I am happy to experience every age~ I look forward for what The Lord has prepared for me everyday!!

My birthday wish is to improve in saying things to the point and not take too long in the thinking process. I tend to think and think and over think. This cause me to say something that would confuse my audience.

20130401

Today~ I enjoy The Lord as a Man. I think it is easy for God to think of man. I sang the song in heart 9 page 34. I was really touched when I meditated that The Lord in heaven He desires of me, on Earth He pursue me. Even as a Man He still loves me so fervently. His love is true. Then I sang - yesterday today forever. His love will never change- beginning of time, when He was on earth, now and through eternity~

20130304

DNTGod
Today after I sang a few lines of "the Long march of love; one time marathon" I was deeply touched by the Lord's humane. Especially when I sang to "you share your all with me" I thought about what is His that He share with me. He share His joy about me, He shares His glory with me, He shares the same Father with me, most touching is that, He shares His feelings with me. He is more real to me than before. I feel that He loves me a lot, but He cannot show me His all yet because I would not understand. But bit by bit, He will let me see clearer and clearer.

I understand more and more the horror of not relying on The Lord, it can be very devastating. A person can be very well brought up but dead in blindness. If i do not follow the Bible what else can I follow. I will see others, I will despise all of God's. When I think only for myself, when I am self centered, when I am thinking not of and for God, God is most hurt.
Lord, how much you treasure when I choose you over what I desire most at this moment, even for a moment.

20130219 Toronto trip recap

2013 02 19 - Toronto

This trip to Toronto is really amazing. I am really happy that I can see the ones that I have not seen from a long time, also I can meet many that I am not familiar with.
I really treasure the time we can pursue together. I am more confirmed about His will through all the meetings and sharing.

In my life, I never thought about myself learning the elementary well or not; in fact, I thought all should have learn it in their early years. On this trip, I realize more that in many aspect of myself I am still in the elementary level, and if not, I am trying to be in a higher level than what I really am. Many of my weakness are due to this problem. This cause me to not be as skillful or as accurate; to be more precise, I am not performing at the level of where I should be. My way to help myself is not to learn the ways of the level that I should be but first be skillful at the elementary so I can progress and build on. When I think about the things that I can do such as basketball, piano, cooking...etc, I understand more why I am not good at it. It is not that I have no talent but because in all things I am not well in its elementary elements and practices. I really give thanks that The Lord show me now. I don't mind it to be now and not earlier. I want to live in the presence. This also can be my testimony. Although I cannot go back in time or pause all that is around me so that I could learn and better myself, but I need to find ways to help myself to improve and be consistent about it. I shouldn't try to take big steps but small steps at a time.

Another thing that impressed me in this camp is when I see the connection of when The Lord revive the truths, there is a progression. From the importance of living out the truths of His family to oneness in all land, then to oneness in spirit, the Father, the Son, and His commission, Sweet Daily Living, and recently John 17. Although it took long years but The Lord is leading us deeper and deeper so that we can go further. Each build on top of the others. We cannot have one then move on to another one, but all are needed; just that the progression of the truths that The Lord gave us testifies that He is leading us deeper into God's heart. I am very thankful for all the elder brothers and sisters that started and joined this movement earlier and walked out the truths. If they didn't walk it out, today I would not be able to have the blessings from these truths. Now, together, we can strive together. I am standing on their shoulders and striving on deeper.

After this camp, I realize more the importance of "Love is the greatest ministry". I am not doing ministry just because I should be doing something and have a status or to show people that I am doing something, but behind all that I do, there should be a purpose. If the purpose is lost then all that is going on is pointless and a waste of time. I must be clear in the things that I do so things can progress in a quicker manner. Also, the people are important in ministry. If love is the greatest ministry then I should learn how to love one another. If I do not love them then I won't have actions. Then actions need planning. If actions don't have good planning it might not have the best or even a positive result.

20130216

I am happy that I can lead a group of older b/s. Although we are not of the same age but we can still pursue together.
The more I share, the more I find that I actually know the way. This also help me to confirm how to walk on the way.
I also get the concept of the more I express the more I will expand in capacity.

20130215 in Toronto

Our first meeting was a success!!
I am happy to pursue with many brothers and sisters! I was nervous that I had to lead such a big group!!! And I am not that familiar with~ but The Lord is most responsible!

I also thank you for those whom prayed for me~ I am feeling much better now!!! Bye bye sickness!!
11:11pm EST

Holding.... Continue to hold....

I think I m quite stubborn in some things. Decided some things and I have to stick with it. Or even if I want to leave it, I can't. Feelings can't and because it is reality.

Random night thought

I can't believe in a few months I'll be turning 25~ unbelievable!! Never thought I'd be this old... Forever young!?
Guess not~

20130122

This is how I would look like if I were made into an advertisement logo!!

20130110 - today

Yesterday I laid down, Today I laid down, Tomorrow I'll try again. . .

Although it's hard, always wanted to but never succeeded.

Sometimes I ask why me? Yesterday i had the "moment"~

I was sitting in the staff room and suddenly i thought to myself..."I am not 23 anymore...wait...how old am i? 2013 - 19....o dear..."
It's been almost 3 years since my car accident. My back has not been well yet. In fact it's affecting my knees, legs, neck, shoulders, hip....Now i really feel old.

Life is very special and abundant, yet it has limit.

Most importantly, How i live this moment.

Hmmm

Hmm~ I've been pondering... I think my current job won't be enough and I always wanted something more from my careering... Something more accomplishing...
I am thinking of ... Changing from fixing planes to ... Fixing tired muscles ~ haha
There are many RMTs working for school board too~ I like working at school environments~ hmm. Something to think about~

20130106

If I were to live again, I would want to talk to You more, sing to You more, laugh with You more, cry to You more... The things that I experienced are inflicted by my own choices and actions.

In the past when I think of the end time and the Lord's coming, I think I would come up with things that I haven't done and wanted to do~ this is just natural reaction. Today I thought about it again and I confirmed to myself that I want to do more than that~ I want to experience heaven on earth everyday. Happy 2013!!