I have never thought i'd grow up and become something. I thought I could just hide behind everyone and follow them so i'll be save and be sure not that I am not lost.
The more I hid myself the more problem i've created. I thought about this in the past but didn't pay much attention to it as I thought it is not as serious as I thought it would be. Last Saturday's worship the Lord reminded me something very serious that I need to face, especially on this trip, or else I will encounter even greater difficulties in my life later on. I was really sad when the Lord showed me what I could face and what I could have become. At the same time, I was touched that the Lord showed it to me. He told me He really loves me personally and need me to not hide but love Him more. This problem that I have hinders me from loving the Lord more.
If I don't deal with this problem, in the beginning it would just be not opening up to people and not talking much. Later on, I would do something but not tell the truth about it because I would be afraid of others knowing the truth. Then it would turn into a natural habit that would deceive the people around me. Hard to describe, but easy to imagine.
I know the Lord will bless me on this trip. Although this is just one of my biggest challenge in life and in this trip, I believe that the Lord will use this to help me mature.
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